FREEDOM

Labour and other random tho'ts!!!

Ok, so I am in the processess of labour and this is the most nasty thing I have ever experienced. I never got to go through anything with Jachin because I was induced with him. Well, now I am thinking that being induced is the way to go...you don't have to deal with all these other things that are happening to your body. I have been dialated and contracting for about three weeks now...and it just continues to get better! NOT!!!! I am not trying to scare anyone, but this is weird....I know God made our bodies for such things as this, but seriously? Did He have to make it soo nasty?! The contractions are crazy....mind you I have the pain tolerance of a flea...and the sitting around and waiting is not so fun either. I am just hoping that if my water breaks, that I am at home in the kitchen and not out and about! That would be funny to tell that story later in life, but not so much at the moment...YIKES!
Shawn is on a retreat this weekend with the students, I am really jealous because I was looking forward to going and getting to hang out and getting to know the students better! I know most of them, but not a real deep relationship like Shawn has with them. I don't want to forge anything with them, but just let them know that they are loved and cared for by other people than their parent's and Shawn. I was also looking forward to getting to know our new leaders better. We have a couple of new ones. I know them, but you just get to know someone even better after spending a weekend with them. So I pray for God's hands of protection over them as they drive and for bonds and relationships to be formed between students and the leadership.....I know that these weekends can be great bonding times and I pray that is what happens for everyone!
Not too much more is happening here, just waiting for this little girl of ours to make her appearance and hanging out with the best little man in the whole world. Jachin is seriously soo much fun and work right now. I am loving that time that it is just the two of us still, but he is a goer, and doesn't believe in sitting still. He is a busy little man. Right now though he is watching cartoons and that gives me a chance to do this! I can't believe that Jachin will be three in a couple of months. Man time flies. He is getting so big, we tried to put on a pair of runners on him this morning to go out and he cried, they were too small....I couldn't believe that his feet have grown that much over the summer. He lived in his sandals so we never ever wore his shoes. So lucky me I get to go take him shoe shopping today or tomorrow. I wish I were the one getting new shoes....he doesn't care what is on his feet and I do! Not fair, ha ha!
Anyway this is really a random blog....a little all over the place. I hope and pray that all who read this are doing well. I am sure I will post again, just the last time I posted it didn't show up until three months later. WEIRD, so I tho't why bother, but now it is on here and I figure I will give it another go!

FREEDOM

RANDOM THOUGHTS

Well.....here it goes. Shawn is at camp for the next couple of weeks. Jachin and I went up yesterday with Charmaine, and Kaylene for the day. We had a great day. Jachin loved playing in the sand, and playing ball. At one point everyone was in the Chapel and Jachin had a microphone and it looked like he was leading worship. There was music on and he was running around singing into the mike and dancing. It was hilarious. I was laughing so hard I started to cry. But Jachin was having a blast...and he loved being up there, in fact he didn't want to leave! On the way home Kaylene's car had a malfunction. The catalytic converter fell off and was dragging. We pulled into Hague and started calling people, Charmaine prayed and Jachin slept. Thank you God, the Baker's from the Church pulled in to get a drink. They said that they have never pulled in there before but they were thirsty....well Kaylene noticed Mr Baker and Charmaine went a running! It was quite funny....to make the story short we made it home, the Bakers were so good to give us a ride home. Thank you God for making them thirsty right at the right time!!!
Jachin is trying to potty train. He told me today randomly that he needed to go to the potty. I tho't I had nothing to loose so I sat him on there and sure enough he went pee. I know that some of you out there are thining whoopie doo, but for us Mom's who are trying or have trained their kids, it was a HUGE deal for me. I was so happy...he get's a "special treat" when he goes on the potty. So he is happy too. He is sitting in the tub right now relaxing...he likes to play in the water.
I am now 27 weeks pregnant and counting down the weeks. I would count days, but it seems like forever. I am thankful though that this time I am not a gestational diabetec. Doc said that chances were high that I should be, but thank you God I am not!! It wouldn't have been the end of the world, but it is nice not to have to worry too much about carbs...and what not. This baby is sure active. I think we have a soccer player growing in here. It is kicking and moving like crazy. The baby was breech as of last week, but it has some time to turn. I just hope it turns before it is too big. The thought of a big baby flippping over scares me...and the idea of the doc's trying to turn it....not so good!!!
This is a short and sweet one, Jachin is draining the tub so I assume that means he wants out. So ciao for now!!!

THE JOYS OF BEING PREGNANT AND OTHER RANDOM THOUGHTS

I didn't think I would be that faithful of a blogger, and sure enough I have not been!!!
But here is another one for the books....it is just some random thoughts about being pregnant and all the joys that go with it! When I say joys, I am being real and sarcastic.

I am not a great pregnant person. I don't enjoy it all that much to be honest. I love the end product of a baby, but the whole pregnancy thing is not my cup of tea! I don't like the morning sickness, or the the nauseau that doesn't go away, or that awful taste in my mouth that is like tasting metallic all day, hmm the list can continue. I know that there are some women out there who absolutely love being pregnant and that it is the most beautiful time in their lives...but not this chicky! I am not sure about the whole "alien" feeling with the baby moving around, it is the weirdest feeling ever. The tho't that there is a real live human being living inside of me is such a foreign and weird thought to me. IT IS amazing the way God made and created the female body, to care and nurture such life. It is just such a weird thing. Don't let this scare those of you who do want children, you will hopefully be one of the ones who love the whole pregnancy thing. I have one friend who said that she would be a surrogate for anyone, she loved being pregnant that much. People like that should receive medals, cause they let this little human grow inside them and then give the baby over to the parent's, no questions asked. I don't think I could do it. As much as I am not a great prego person, I do get highly attached to that little person inside. The tho't of not being able to keep the baby would break my heart after going through everything! Anyway I am going to leave this topic now....and move one to other things.

I was at a lingerie shower for a friend this past weekend. Let me tell you, it was the most beautiful shower I think I have ever been at. I thouroughly (spelling?) enjoyed every minute of the evening. Michelle, Camellia and Rachel did such a wonderful job. There were a few games and they weren't cheesey shower games, they were fun get to know the bride a bit better and design some lingerie for her out of cardboard paper games. We had such a blast. The theme of the evening was "Garden Tea Party." Camellia owns a barn house and she had all the furniture moved out and there were these 7 huge flower holders full of purple lilacs, there were 4 tables all set up with china cups and plates, fancy tea spoons, glass plates, flowers, candles and teapots, creamer and sugar bowls. It was an amazing sight. I was truley amazed and in awe! It was a great evening had by all I am sure. I also got to meet a few new girls and they were beautiful, kind and a blast to hang out with that night.

Hmmm....what else to write about. I want to paint...we are getting new furniture and now I got the itch to paint and totally re-vamp my whole living room. Financially speaking this is soooo not possible. The fact that we are getting new furniture is a miracle in itself. We are have wanted to get new stuff for such a long time and now we are finally getting some!! YAY! Anywho...we are going to paint the two kids bedrooms. Jachin's will be a cool blue, maybe, and the baby's room....well we aren't sure what we are having, but I am going on a hunch and painting it girly colors! I guess if we are wrong, Jenn said that she would come and re-paint it for me while in the hospital. I guess from there we will see what else we get to paint.

The basement is almost finished, Shawn has done such a great job down there. It is amazing what he has done. For someone who has no clue what tools are, he has taken quite well to the whole building thing. I am so impressed, and proud of him. He has done a great job. We are moving all the furniture that is upstairs, down. That will open up the living room and get some more space up here for the new stuff. I am thinking too much space, but we will see.....

Anyway I am going to sign off for now...I am rambling on about nothing and everything. Bye for now!

Self Esteem

Ok this is something that has been bugging me for such a long time....and well now I feel like writing about it! I was watching Oprah yesterday, after Jenn told me what it was about...and well it made me so sad. There was this one woman who with her three year old daughter who drove around town and the Mom would ask the little girl, "is that woman fat or skinny?" What a way to bring up a child. I was disgusted because at the age of three that little girl has a complex with weight already. It is sooo sad that such young girls/children are starting to worry about such trivial things at such a young age. She should be enjoying her childhood, not worrying about eating veggies and fruit only. The brutal part is...this is almost becoming acceptable in society (spelling?)! We are becoming so worried about our looks and weight that it is an obsession. This is not news to anyone, but I feel like writing about it!
There was a psychiatrist on Oprah who said that some of the esteem issues are generational curses and that they can be passed in-utero. WOW! That was a tough pill to swallow. Being pregnant I really don't want to pass any such thing down to my daughter (if that is what this baby is) or son for that matter! I was shocked that she talked about generational curses....that is usually talked among Christian circles...didn't realize that it was a term used by everyone. Second I was amazed that you can pass on negative thoughts in-utero. The harm that you can do to a baby is amazing through your thoughts and feelings. Lots to think about!
I wish we would be more comfortable as woman with who God made us. I know that I am on the fluffy side and especially now that I am 17 weeks pregnant, but that is the way God made me and I should be content with who I am. But just like every and any other woman I strive to be skinnier, look better and blah blah blah. I am not content with the way God made me. I think that He made a few little glitches and errors....but did He? He makes us the way He wants us...He knew what and who we would be before we were even conceived. Amazing but true. We as women need to take comfort in the fact that we are made in God's image and He doesn't make mistakes...EVER! This is a pill I need to swallow myself, but I hope that others hear it too. There are too many hurting females in this world due to self esteem and weight issues and that is not to mention all the other horrible things that happen. God loves us the way we are, why can't we love ourselves the way He made us?

I am blogging freshman!

This is my first and most probable, my last. I am not into the blogging thing! I like to read others, but not sure if I will be a committed blogger! Really, the only reason I am doing this is so that I can leave comments on Ronnie and Janelle's blog. That is it, that is all!
Bye for now!